Off.the.Record

yesterday fun
30.4.06

sorry guys, i really dont like complaining a lot in my blog..especially about my assignments etc. like today, what i'm doing is staying at home. i will reach the 'target' which i should have done yesterday and the day before. and dont say please i abandon church because of it. i've been out for the past two days to church. i know today is sunday service. perhaps its not the church i abandon, people may say i prioritize school work. fiuh! yes in some ways and no for umm... yap!

ok, let me talk about wonderful me yesterday. i went out the whole day. it doesnt matter actually if i dont spend money (believe me, i tried to control myself so hard). but finally i ended up with buying clothes (1 piece only,should be 3 pieces though), renting VCDs(yes, i know its ass period)and *** 3 digits number in my account. DIE!! now i really have to manage my finances wisely. Huh!

okey..continue to do my work. ciao!

Annice @ 9:52 am
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procrastination
28.4.06

no more procrastination

"procrastination is the thief of time"
i still remember what Mr. Philip always said to IEPOS students. but i think now i dont know how much time has been stolen. haha...
im wasting my time really. see what im doing now. blogging! even though i know i have 3 major assignments due on next next week, two of them i havent even started. like what i did yesterday, i wanted to achieve my target, at least 1/6 of my marketing assignment, i neither finished it nor typed even one word in my laptop!! since yesterday i felt a bit 'disorientated' (like li-shan dearie said), i think i really lost in my thought. fiuh! i dont know actually what i was thinking. what the main thing that is bugging me, i also dont know. perhaps, a lot of assignments. umm...not really, contribute a bit of it but really NOT because of that.so other things such as BLA! what??! may be i expect too much, hope for A, hope for B...and everything i wanna do nicely and yeah... i realize my weakness, im perfectionist in certain things.
so, finally i come up with my conclusion that the more i have work to do, the bigger tendency to waste my time, to do what i randomly wanna do. fiuh!! hope no more procrastination.

coming to 1 o'clock in the afternoon im waiting for my dear li-shan to wake up so we can go to library and fitness first together. but while im waiting, i still cant concetrate on doing my marketing assignment! HUH!! and i havent read scripture today!! okey, off now!

to be continued

Annice @ 12:48 am
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'foruming'
25.4.06

Woa... i have a lot of things to do. Yesterday, i only finished doing company research for my marketing project report. haha...and today im successfully slacking around like what im doing now. BLOGGING!! i should be doing my business communication report. Yea, another report!! Since this report remains untouched during this holiday, i have to finish it at least 25%??? ok, dun think i can. 20, 10% maybe..

anyway, i feel like having forum. fiuh, after a few days back, stupid me, i put my msn and yahoo id in my forum account. and a random guy just added me in msn...no, no, no!!! ok, i just wanna stick with one forum and ya...

*listening to shout to the Lord* oo... just now, i opened one forum (im looking for suitable forum for me. and i go to topic 'occultism'... and i found so many people dont believe in God. hiks! okey.. i know its a bit silly because its OCCULTISM, of coz gitu lho!!! haha... its just talking about this, it reminds me of something. actually, i was bugging me a couple of days ago but yea... *shut my mouth* cant tell you!

woa..i lop this song give thanks

Annice @ 8:11 pm
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fail unit = NOOO
24.4.06

im stuck with my assignment
ive been looking for the information about coles supermarket since yesterday or perhaps 2 days ago?? from journals to www documents... and none of them is related. usually it is not so hard for me to search information. but now...i dunno, i cant concentrate at all, i dunno what im gonna do. i am stuck, stuck, stuck.
huuh, i know. if theres a prob bugging me, its like bugging all of me. and then i wont focus!!!

ok...i have to do it now.. finish research at least, so i'll know what im gonna write for my marketing report. dun wanna fail this unit, too much money, energy, time spent on it. NO, NO, NO... why im thinking like that now??? really, really depressed?? hope not, hope my brain is still working, at least still be able to think of how to get information about COLES!!! Huh!

Annice @ 2:58 pm
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akan kemarin

hari yang harusnya cerah dimulai dengan segala keindahannya
bukan kesedihan yang menyambut hariku
ketika aku teringat akan masalah kemarin,
aku sudah memaafkan diriku untuk semua hal itu
aku terlalu pemurah?
mungkin!
ketika orang lain tidak bisa melupakan apa yang terjadi kemarin,
ketika mereka masih mengingat hal yang menyakitkan,
ketika belum ada kata usai,
dan ketika itulah aku tahu jika aku terlalu pemaaf akan diri ini
hal yang kubenci,
waktu masalah itu datang dengan sendiriya
saat itu juga dengan kebodohanku aku tidak mengerti apa yang terjadi
dan dengan kekuatanku yang paling lemah pula aku menerka
tetapi, lagi, dengan kekuranganku ini
maka akhirnya aku terjatuh juga
ke dalam perspektifku yang paling dalam
yang entah salah dan benar seperti warna abu-abu..

Annice @ 2:33 pm
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on Your shoulder

dan kuberlari padaMu
pada FirmanMu
bukan kuat, bukan gagah
tapi oleh Roh Kudus
biar ku kan berlomba
sampai kupandang wajahMu
biar kuhidup hidup dalam kasihMu yang mulia

Ku Berlari PadaMu by Franky Sihombing

Lord, now i desperately need Your presence..
I am running to You like a broken child
I am looking for You even though I know You are Emmanuel
Lord, desperately need You
I know You are by my side
so... can i cry on Your shoulder?

Annice @ 1:40 pm
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friendship matter

about yesterday's matter
as at 23 april 2006

do u know this format reminds me with my last semester unit, Accounting 100?? income statement! haha, anyway, umm...dun like this format

change!

1.0 intro
>> tempted to do bloging since i read mbak jes' blog..haha, i think i miss a lot of NEWS from you. YAP!
>> at this time, at this moment i should be doing my marketing reseach (i cant stand my groupmates abandoning it, but now i also do that, fiuh!)
>> should..no, no..MUST write this blog in english in order to enable some pple ^^ to understand my blog. haha..v easy to express everything in indo though. but, if i do write sumthing in indo language, it doesnt mean i dun want u to know. its jus apa ya dunno wat to say.

2.0 small matter
i was in my bad mood jus now. hiks2.. trust me, when im in my bad mood, i become easily irritated. ^^ sorry.
oh ya the reason why i was so sad, NO, so upset, NO, dunno...so WRONG maybe.
yup! i think its becos of this problems accumulating since the beginning of this semester. friendship and ya... hmm.. its jus very hard for me to hide disappointment may be. and whenever i started to see the differences between now and before, i became so sad. actually INDEED ive already told myself to stop my stupid sentimental feeling, but the fact i dunno why!!! i related everything based on that point. fiuh..disappointment! when i thought i was fine with it, the reality was not for me.
but promise, promise, from now on... have to stop! have to be more sensible!

3.0 reflection
i do believe from every moment, there is something i have to learn. call it the battle of life. longggggg way to go home. and so many hurdles on the way home..but i know God always walk beside me. so when i tremble and fall down, it is not because he leaves me but its because He wants me to be strong and rely on Him.
therefore for everything, i shall say thank you, Lord.

4.0 conclusion
stupid assignment format! reminds me heaps of work i have to do (management, marketing, and untouched business communication report)..haha cao! have to go and sleep since my bathroom mate has urged me to sleep (sorry, v v sorry, im wasting my time looking for blog template and stuffs instead of sleeping. oh thanks, anyway^^)

-DONE-

Annice @ 2:01 am
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bingung
8.4.06

aduhhh..bingung skale..
kalo dipikir2 pilihan itu ada gara-gara
1 pilihan itu ada kekurangannya...
maksudku, kalo suatu jalan begitu sempurnanya sampai semua orang memilih itu
pasti dalam hati ini ga perlu susah-susah mikir...
jadi kayak masalah ini, aku mesti mikir soalnya ada yang ga sempurna di dalamnya...
coba yang sempurna2...like harus mengikuti jalan the Saviour of my soul..
so ga perlu bingung2 kan...haha

Annice @ 11:29 am
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wondering
4.4.06

just wondering..
when i was put in this situation
i didnt know what to do
and i thought He didnt care about me
because He didnt change the situation for me
He didnt answer when i called Him in my prayer
but truly,
He does care about me
care too much
til He doesnt change the situation for me
it is just
because He wants me to change
to change my point of view into His point of view,
to change my weakness into His perfect power in weakness
to change me
and thats why i love Him so much..

Annice @ 12:34 am
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because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God - Romans 8:14