Off.the.Record

The 'Real' New Semester
1.8.06

Hi again! Today I started my new semester in CBS. How was it? First impression? It was freakyyyyyyyy... hiks. I dunno why I felt so scared (well, actually up to now I still feel that). First time I came to the theatre for my first lecture, I could feel the aura of... DOT.DOT.DOT. I dont know myself.

It's just... I saw the number of Australians or Asian-Australian there. Yeah..Yeah.. you're right if you guess it is because of the language problem. I always think that the language used determines who you are making friends with, how you are doing the presentation and in very simple words, it determines your success in class, which if I can relate it, it affects your job, your future in 5 years later.

Well.. you can say that I shouldnt have thought that way. Or... you can accuse me of having no confidence, being single-minded and whatsoever.. It's just... I have nothing to say for this matter. But I have just realised that many people actually feel the same way too. First time in uni is tremendous, but being one among unknown hundred people in lecture building is scary.

And I guess... the worst thing is when one of my indo friends from CIC asked me to join her and the other friend for major project report. I dont think my respond was that nice. I was like.. telling her to mix with other people. I mean not all the members are Indonesians in our group. Fiuh, I don't like to do this actually. You know, for me it is difficult to get the right group's members. Experience from last semester, I was terribly suffering when I was put in the group of Hongkongers. But now, she asked me (well, she had never asked me before though) to form a group together but I did refuse her.

Oh NOOO...

Anyways, I have happy news after the bad things I have told you. I 'found' (well, I did read this passage before) something that can make me feel so much better today, something that stregthens me.

Proverbs 2:6-8
"For the LORD gives wisdom,and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding. He holds victory in store for the upright, he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones.

O.. thanks Lord for telling me to be dependent on You for every problem I am facing now. Hehe...

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Annice @ 10:54 pm
God loves you always
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because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God - Romans 8:14