Off.the.Record

dreams
27.6.06

Today i spent most of my time at home. Since my mom was busy with her cooking (lontong mie), I also had nothing to do. In fact, I do realize that I am slacking nowadays. I never follow my stupid timetable that I made for myself. Haha...sounds so stupid.

Yes, anyway. I went to Gramedia (bookshop) today. I bought books...emmm english books, specifically. To be honest, I really want to improve my english, to correct my poor grammar and to increase my limited vocabulary. But in the end, I couldn't find any books that suit me. hiks! I think english books with indonesian authors and publishers are very poor. In my opinion, the books only suit people with certain levels of english. But definitely not the advanced level. I am not boasting myself by saying indirectly that I am in advanced level of english. For my goodness, I just cannot buy them.

Then I bought another book. Guess what?? It is a marketing book by Hermawan Kartajaya. He is a famous marketer in Indonesia. I know him (it is quite funny) because my brother likes this stupid radio channel. And that channel is actually about business. So I always listened to that until I remembered his name. Haha.. I really dont know what made me buy the book. My major (PR) is under marketing. But I dont think I will be that excited to fill my holiday with a marketing book.

Lastly, I bought a teenage magazine. You know what attracted me to buy that. It is because it is written in the cover 'tips to become a novelist'. It just reminded me of my abandoned dream. I dont like saying my cliche complaint. But I was so busy last semester. And I have a lot of things to achieve in my head. My level of japanese language, for example. I am trying to learn kanji even before my course teach me. Also, my working things, I want to work but up to now I dont have one. You know, everytime I ask my dad or my mom for money, I feel very bad. Besides, my mom is working now. I shall think ahead how I am going to earn my money in the future. All of these things simply blurred my dream to become a novelist.

Still about my dream. During these past few days, I was thinking of getting PR in Australia. I know it wont be that easy. Firstly, my parents wont like this idea. Secondly, my course wont make it easier for me to get PR. The 'points' (that what people say) wont be enough to get PR. So I was thinking and thinking. I must work. So I can save my money up for my future. Anyway, its just one of my dreams.

Hiks, I wanna write alot actually. But lishie already asked me to sleep NOW. Fiuh, ok ok. I am hungry, dun want to slp. ok. continue tmr. BYEEEEEEEEEEE

Annice @ 1:56 am
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