Off.the.Record

Indo Food
30.6.06

Let me introduce Indonesian food. Well, I took this picture this afternoon. This one was for my lunch in Malang (a small city, 2 hours from Surabaya by car).

I want to show you how indonesian food looks like. Anyways, looking only no sample given..haha...sorry.

Annice @ 12:26 am
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dreams2
27.6.06

Hehe... I am still talking about my dreams here. Sorry, guys. I don't know why but I am really keen on telling you all the details about my dreams. Haha...

Now... moving along to my dreams related to my course. I am still in my first year uni. In my third year uni, I hope I can get student exchange with its scholarship in my third year. I know it will be hard. Since the head department of language course said that there would be so much competition, I was thinking how I would be able to get that. When I reach level 3 for japanese (most probably intermediate-advanced level), other student might reach higher level than me. That's why these days (including my days during holiday) I need to study japanese. I need to study more kanji characters and others. But as you can see here, I am still daydreaming, doing nothing yet slacking. Hiks! I need motivation.

And this is about my public relations course. Hehe... You can laugh your head off. No harm because I also think that this is impossible. Okey. I picture myself working in multinational company or perhaps japanese company. I worked in the marketing department as a public relation. And... ok, ok. I don't want to continue. Such an embarrassment.Hiks.

Ok. enough. end of story. well, actually I still want to tell you about my dream guy. Ah....I am so embarrased. No. No. Next time I'll tell you, ok. Not now. Ciaoo...I have to go. I am so sad now. I don't know what's wrong with my MSN and YM. I cannot chat with lishie using both of them. Fiuh...I have to send her email then.

Annice @ 10:16 pm
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dreams

Today i spent most of my time at home. Since my mom was busy with her cooking (lontong mie), I also had nothing to do. In fact, I do realize that I am slacking nowadays. I never follow my stupid timetable that I made for myself. Haha...sounds so stupid.

Yes, anyway. I went to Gramedia (bookshop) today. I bought books...emmm english books, specifically. To be honest, I really want to improve my english, to correct my poor grammar and to increase my limited vocabulary. But in the end, I couldn't find any books that suit me. hiks! I think english books with indonesian authors and publishers are very poor. In my opinion, the books only suit people with certain levels of english. But definitely not the advanced level. I am not boasting myself by saying indirectly that I am in advanced level of english. For my goodness, I just cannot buy them.

Then I bought another book. Guess what?? It is a marketing book by Hermawan Kartajaya. He is a famous marketer in Indonesia. I know him (it is quite funny) because my brother likes this stupid radio channel. And that channel is actually about business. So I always listened to that until I remembered his name. Haha.. I really dont know what made me buy the book. My major (PR) is under marketing. But I dont think I will be that excited to fill my holiday with a marketing book.

Lastly, I bought a teenage magazine. You know what attracted me to buy that. It is because it is written in the cover 'tips to become a novelist'. It just reminded me of my abandoned dream. I dont like saying my cliche complaint. But I was so busy last semester. And I have a lot of things to achieve in my head. My level of japanese language, for example. I am trying to learn kanji even before my course teach me. Also, my working things, I want to work but up to now I dont have one. You know, everytime I ask my dad or my mom for money, I feel very bad. Besides, my mom is working now. I shall think ahead how I am going to earn my money in the future. All of these things simply blurred my dream to become a novelist.

Still about my dream. During these past few days, I was thinking of getting PR in Australia. I know it wont be that easy. Firstly, my parents wont like this idea. Secondly, my course wont make it easier for me to get PR. The 'points' (that what people say) wont be enough to get PR. So I was thinking and thinking. I must work. So I can save my money up for my future. Anyway, its just one of my dreams.

Hiks, I wanna write alot actually. But lishie already asked me to sleep NOW. Fiuh, ok ok. I am hungry, dun want to slp. ok. continue tmr. BYEEEEEEEEEEE

Annice @ 1:56 am
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Journey
22.6.06

My journey to home
Today is one of my worst days. I dont mean that I blame GOD for giving me such day. Its just.. ok let me tell you
The morning was still dark. I woke up at 5.30 by the call from the cab! At that time, I should have been on the cab going to the airport. The gloomy morning pehaps manipulated me to keep on sleeping. But still I had put alarm the nite before I slept. And stupid me, always, couldnt wake up by the alarm.
But actually I am thinking now, it might not have been completely my mistake. It was possible that my faulty mobile couldnt ring at that time.

So can u imagine how panicked i was. I still had to wash my face, take out yoghurts from the fridge, take out my clothes from the dryer, do this, do that. YUP. so the point, i really, really lost myself today. and hopefully I didnt hurt my friends' feelings because of my overeaction.

This stupid incident made me feel very bad all the times before, during and after my flight. I wanted to say sorry but I didnt have credits. And if I did have credits, I still couldnt text them because of my spoilt mobile phone. I was thinking and thinking of nothing. I really hate this. I wanted to use 'warnet' (internet cafe) in denpasar to contact them and I was walking from international terminal to domestic one, and the other way round. Finally i found it, BUT, the cost strangled me slowly but sure. It cost Rp. 25000/15 mins, which was equal to AU$4/15 mins. NO, NO. I was so shocked. 15 mins wouldnt be enough to write all my 'apologize' e-mail. So finally I was stuck in the domestic airport, sitting in front of the check-in-luggage desk. It was too early so I couldnt check in and got rid of my 'heavenly' luggage. hiks! It was so terrible.

That's why, that's why I hate traveling alone. Whenever i traveled by myself, there was always some stupid things happened to me. Hiks! Like last christmas, my flight was delayed for 6 hours! I was so frustrated. But lucky, I have my wonderful friends accompanying me. And then, in denpasar today... another hiks! i was in transit for another 5 hours plus 1 hour delay. That was because the plane was all of sudden trying to stop during take-off. I was so scared for a moment but I remembered that actually I wouldnt die at this young age. Thats why I felt secured suddenly. :)fiuhh... i am thinking now.. i should change my carrier from Garuda to.. dunno.. SQ? hehe..

After that, on the plane...I WAS PLACED next to young couple. Thank you to whoever gave me this seat. GRR.. First time before the take-off incident, the guy was sitting next to me. And after the delay thing and we went to the plane… it changed the lady was sitting on that place. You know what that meant.. That meant they were too afraid if I molested the guy. EUW!!! Sorry, I know I am too fussy, sensitive, whatever. But the truth is I can read people's body language. I know from the way they were looking at me, they gave me a suspicion look. KYAAAA... Whatever, that's my journey, all the 'outstanding' things that I had to go through before reaching home. ^^

Annice @ 8:49 pm
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random post

I have just realised that my blog layout in my home computer is so ugly. It is in a yucky color (bright yellow) not the one in my laptop, a nice soft peach color. What's wrong? Can someone also tell me whether you are seeing the same thing as me?
Also, I noticed that I had put twice the same message in my tagboard. AIYAAA!!! I feel like reseting the whole tag board!!

Anyway, I am on holiday now. well, not actually a TOTAL free holiday since I still have to do some things ^^. and stupid me, as usual, forgot to bring her laptop from perth. so now I miss my work, my songs, my dictionary and everything in there so much. fiuhh..let me tell you a decent action that... my very kind bathroom mate wants to parcel my laptop to indo. NO, NO, NO thanks. I am not that desperate until I couldnt live without it. It's okey lishie. ^^

Annice @ 1:39 am
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my bro
18.6.06

A few days back, someone reminded me of my brother. When I was walking with lishie and her mom in Carousel, I saw an australian teenage boy on a wheelchair. Actually, I had seen him before somewhere, on the bus and maybe in city train station as well. I am really sure last time he didnt sit on the wheelchair.

He resembles a lot my brother. Apart from the race, he is tall with long-shaped face. He is not as skinny as my brother but in some ways he looks like my brother. The way he looked around is like rolling his eyes, really like my bro. And that's why I came to my conclusion that he was also abnormal (i dunno what a good word to describe it).

I was thinking of my brother's future yesterday. I dont know what made me think this way, but i hope i can bring my brother here one day. I know its maybe too late. All i know about autism, when autistic kids grow older, they understand better than when they were young. So, i was thinking... maybe I wont have time to bring him here in Oz to get a better treatment. By the time I become a successful career woman, he will probably have been a young man (ready to get married^^). sorry for thinking like that. hehe...

Overall, it is one of my dreams so far (all for my brother's goodnees). I'll tell in my next post all the details about my dreams ^^. Indeed, I want to get PR and stay in Perth.. and above all, I wanna walk on the way that God has prepared for me. ^^

Annice @ 1:02 am
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about today
17.6.06

I have just come back from a big dinner today. Well.. after youth service, we went out to Northbridge to have dinner together, which were held to appreciate whoever helped the church's anniversary last may. Actually I'm still hungry now...haha.. I didn't eat much. thanks to the waiters in that resto. Its kinda.. dunno what to say. Out table didnt get vegies and rice while other tables got them. thanks, man.

Anyway, this is what i wanna talk about. It's about the preacher today, a lady that I had never seen before. She was talking about Bethel. But frankly, I don't really understand the point of it. I think... she talked, talked a lot of things until it covers the entire topic of Christianity. The topic was too broad. She was talking about angels, relationship with God, etc. The second point, sorry, I don't like her tone. The way she talk is like... I dunno how to describe, but its like a poetic language for me. And when she talked in a high tone, it reminds me of one thing that makes my mom hate christians. Because when they talk about their religion, they seem to force the idea of it. And therefore, I dunno why, suddenly I don't like the preacher either. I was thinking that people like her that made my Mom think in a negative way. Ya...Im sorry, I hate prejudgement. I tried not to but couldnt help it.

Annice @ 10:57 pm
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Lord..
11.6.06

You are the maker of the universe
You know me even before I was born
You call me by my name
You understand me more than I do
You are the one that I can trust
Deep in my heart, I want to grow in faith and trust

Annice @ 5:12 pm
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because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God - Romans 8:14